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6 down, 6 to go!!!!

Half way, thats what today brought and I'm so thrilled.  I met with the Dr today and he cut my dosage in half.  Especially the Oxy.,  Actually not really half but last month he cut the Oxy 25%.  Today the cut the Oxy and the FU-5 to 60%.  He actually asked me if I wanted to cut the Oxy completely.  I really wanted to say yes.  So bad I wanted to say yes but....Oxy is given for a reason and the reason is to improve my chances of recovering and any reduces any recurring of cancer.  Well, I sure don't want that so I told him lets keep it at 60% for now and see how it works and how the side effects are.  Tonight I'm drinking a bottle of cold water with White Grape flavoring in it and I'm doing well so far.  Now how good is that?! He also suggested I doubled the "mood" pills. He then wrote me a prescription for double the dosage.   I'm sure hoping that works.

Oh yeah and the gave me some medicine (not iron) via slow shot to increase the red cells of my blood.  It's a little low and he's thinking it may be a reason for my extreme exhaustion.  I'm hoping so.  

Epidemic of bed bugs....ick.   I'm watching the news. 

I understand both of my children are either injured, or have bites, poison ivy etc.  All I can say is I hope it goes ok.   I love you guys!!!

Happy Tuesday

Ok..Mowing the grass and then shopping can really do one in..Groceries are everywhere and here i sit. I want a new cell phone...dammit

Good lord its hotter n/hell here

and plenty of other places but since I'm here.  I'm talking about here...I was feeling pretty good when I woke up this morning (9:00) but tired.   That is a good chemo day I'm telling you.  SO.,since my back  yard hadn't been mowed in 3 weeks it had to be done so I decided to do it right away before it got toooooo hot to do it.  Now, my yard is the size of a postage stamp, but since I had it fenced in I am responsible for cutting it.  My co-worker has been cutting it for me since the beginning of spring but I fell like I should be able to do it.  So, I did it 3 wks ago and again this morning!!  (Me and every neighbor that has to cut their grass). It only takes 30 minutes to cut it so I was done at 9:30.  Rosco is soooo excited that his privates aren't getting tickled when he goes out any more.   

So I have accomplished that and now I'm half dead on the couch.  I want to sleep.  But..today is get the nails done  Its one treat I allow myself every two weeks.  I wonder, can I fall asleep getting them done?  Customers laugh at me because I have sweaters, and heavy socks on to help with my neuropathy and the fact that I'm cold as hell half the time.  They keep those darn salons colder than dammit and if I get cold..........totally useless.  

After I get the nails done, I'll go get Rosco a pool and get some food for dinner.  Although I don't feel like eating now, I will then.  I figure when I feel like eatingl..I'd better.   Last night I fixed rice with edamame (sp) in it.  It was so good but......Rosco absolutely adored it.  He ate what I couldn't and cleaned the bowl.  Finally something that might be good for him that he likes.  So, I'll get plenty of them at the store.   He needs a diet.  

What are you doing today?  Where is football season?  Since the Cubs stink I'm not feeling like watching them stink.  I've done enough of that in my life.  I guess I'll find some movies and watch them.  100 deg is too hot to go out.   

Happy Saturday everyone!!!

From my old apartment.    

Doing OK

I woke up Sunday feeling a lot better.  I got some stuff done around the house before I got too tired....Monday felt pretty good too but my BP was quite low.  Chicken soup for lunch brought it back up so I was ok. 

I tested my BP Tuesday am and it was 147/78 so I took my BP pills.  After lunch it was osco92/70..I started feeling a little puny so I made an appt in the am for IV's.   That usually helps me feel better.  Lets hope so.

I've got plenty of tomatoes growing now.  All I need is for them to get bigger and red so I can try them.  I'm so excited about this.  I may make plans for a small garden next spring.  Or maybe a pot(so to speak) garden.  I'm going to get some pots etc on sale this week to get ready for next spring.  

I had a long talk with my sister on Sunday evening and it helped me and my depressed attitude wonders.  It was so much fun and we laughed and picked on each other and it was so wonderful.  I love it when she calls me.  We've been thru a lot together and its wonderful that we can still have a ball together.  

Got my hair cut this weekend.  Its quite short but I'm loving the ease of it.  I love my hairdresser and he's a real support to me with all I'm having done to me right now.  He told me if I ran out of milk again to call him and he'll run to the store and get it...What a doll.  

I'm looking at the 8 day forecast.  We don't get out of the 90's for the whole 8 days!!!  The one good thing about my being cold all the time is my electric bill is nice and low during this hot summer.  

Have a great evening everyone.   Rosco say's hi too!!!  He's a beauty..

In his favorite place on the earth!!! 

It wasn't a hard hit...really

Or so the Dr said.  This has been a dreadful week.  I don't know how to explain it but as soon as it began Tuesday it was bad and got worse.  I was so dizzy that walking was difficult.  They cut back on the Oxi stuff that makes me cold but although the side effects were less they were still there.  The depression is still there and the dizziness made it worse.  I just wanted to crawl into a hole and stay there...Instead...I fainted (I think) and banged my head into the concrete floor!.  What a pain, literally.   I went to the clinic, they did a CT of my head and said I just had a hard hit.  What a relief considering my history.  Having had an aneurysm scared the devil out of me.  This particular treatment has kept me asleep for almost every minute of every day.  I dozed off a few times at my desk on Wed, and Thursday.  I've never done that in my life. Even in the days of drunken partying...My BP has been very low, my appetite is still gone.  Nothing but Cherries and Cheerios tastes good.  

I know I should be in a good mood and fighting this with all I have, and I am fighting it....just not the mood.  This damn depression is a hard one to kick.  I have asked for some meds to help me but evidently you have to take them for a while to kick in.   The really good is....7 more treatments...thats all....and its been 10 weeks since I started.  I can't believe its been that long.  I can make it but I have no doubt that some of the weeks will be bad and some better...............Thanks for listening.   

Happy Birthday to my wonderful Daughter

My wonderful baby girls b'day is today,,,,July 14th.  I remember it well and how very happy we were when she was born.  She was a beauty and so much fun/  Guess what?  She still is.  And she's a mom, a wonderful mom.  She makes me wish I had been the mother she is.  That's how good she is.

I wish we lived closer just so we could be together more.  For right now my traveling is difficult, she just bought a new house to time is an issue for both of us.

I want her to have a wonderful birthday.  Let me tell you I love you, and you should do what you want to do on your birthday!!!

Mom and Kim 

7 to go..............Sounds good doesn't it

They cut down on the medicine that has been giving me a horrible time and it seems to have helped.  Don't think that its all good, I still have trouble drinking and touching really, really cold stuff but right around room temp or a little cooler works ok.   

I asked for some meds today to help me with some issues and the damned insurance co want's further approval information.  Don't be surprised if your insurance co doesn't care if a medication was called in by your Dr.  For your handling of Cancer is not an authorization. F*c*ers.  

I did tell the nurse about my weight loss.  She's going to talk to the DR.  She want's him to know that when he's assigning doses of meds.  Two days ago I had lost 24 lbs.  Some people think its too much but for my ideal weight I'll need to lost 15 more and maybe I'll look ok but...I do want to be sure there isn't something inside that's causing that....I go back Thursday to have my "little buddy" removed so I guess I'll find out then.

Watching Rissoli & Isles (taped) right now.  My daughter said she liked it and we sometimes to like the same TV shows.

Have a great Tuesday everyone.

Groovin 2 MANILOW... Rock on

Groovin 2 MANILOW... Rock on Lulu

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More tomatoes!!!!

Mowed the lawn for the first time this year!!!f Yeah me, I'm not asleep yet. Had a ball last nightj but got tired early.

Did it again. Slept until 10am. I have an appt at noon and I need a shower!! I guess I needed to sleep because by god thats all I've done!!! Happy Saturday everyone

I'm on vacation today. I just had to have a mental health day so to speak. I fell asleep last night at 7:30, woke up at 10 am. I'm still in my jammies. Yeah me!!!

Wednesday...even

if I've thought it was Tuesday all day.   Went and got IV fluids this morning.  I'm hoping that it helps the next few days.  I'm going to a "everyone's birthday" part on Sat afternoon and I so want to feel good.  

I've also taken Friday off this week.  Yes, I've taken one vacation day and have nothing to do.  I may sleep all day, whatever but.....I will enjoy.  Its just time for me to have a day off and right away.   Hope I don't need it again but I'll enjoy it this weekend!!!

July 5th and not working!!!

Well actually I am working around the house but not at the job so to speak.  Paid holiday and I am enjoying it.  

Rosco and I slept until 10 am.  Between the fireworks and steam cleaning the carpet last night we were both exhausted.  I'm still tired but glad I accomplished  what I set out to do.  I now have laundry for today.  

I also have a pork roast I was supposed to eat last night (wasn't hungry) and scallops that were going to be tonights dinner.  All is thawed and ready to be cooked. Anyone want to come for dinner?  What in the sam hill ever made me think I'd eat that food?  I've lost 21 lbs..doesn't that say something about my appetite?  Oh yeah, it may say something about the taste of wine totally turns me off so my alcohol consumption is just about zero...

What ever, I'm enjoying size 10.  I haven't worn a 10 since 1 year after the birth of Zoot!!  I also feel that my body will rally back when all this chemo is over so I'm not throwing away the large clothes!!

Have a nice day everyone and neighbor.......NO FIREWORKS ARE NEEDED TONIGHT!!!!!

 

Lessons learned

• Dog hates the mop....He's barking his head off as I mop the bathroom floor.  
• When you're using spray paint...make sure the spray end is NOT pointed against your hand...Especially when you have nothing to take it off.  (Any ideas?)  Oh yeah, the paint was red gloss.  It matches my fingernails.
• When I move, as in from sitting to standing, standing to walking I get so damned dizzy I have to hold onto something.  This one is totally new, but rather impedes putting steamer together.
• If you, as in me, plant a new shrub the dog only sees "hole to dig"...Swatting him on his little nose....didn't even rate a look at me.  I'd better go get the newspaper.  
• Fresh cherries are the most wonderful thing on the planet.  I had no idea.  If I could figure out how to make a cherry milkshake I would.   
• I bought grape tomatoes since my plants are non producing at this point.
• I found something in the freezer that was marinating ...Something marinating in something.  I'm thawing it out to have it tonight.  
• Now off to that damn steamer again.  I've painted and mopped now I must tackle the rug.  Pray for me 
   

Happy Birthday USA!!!

I've had a wonderful start to my day.  One of my sisters called and we had a wonderfully long conversation and I loved every minute of it.  Now I'm inspired to steam my carpets.  Thats all I had planned anyway.  I just have to keep Rosco from barking at the damn thing.  He runs back and forth like he's going to kill it.  Hell, its still in pieces in the hall.  Wait til I get the damn thing put together and turn it on!!!

To all the neighbors who felt the urge last night to shoot off thousands of fireworks....IT WAS ONLY THE FREAKING 3RD!!!!!  My poor doggie about had a breakdown and it was so close to my house I was getting concerned myself.  I need to see if I can find Rosco's valium and give it to him.  If I can't find that I'll give him Benadryl.  He was so scared last night.  Shaking like a leaf and hiding in my lap.  (He thought he was invisible!) 

Today is the usual for me but I've taken the medicine and I'll be fine when it kicks in.  Remodel my house is in my plans.   New area rugs etc.  After I clean the regular carpet.  

Have a good/safe day everyone.  TODAY IS THE FOURTH!!! (not tomorrow).  

Got it!!

I went to Walmart and got the steam cleaner.  Put it in the car since I couldn't see in front of my cart and no one seemed to notice me.  I nearly creamed a few people.!! (some needed it)

So, I'm going back in for some groceries.  We won't discuss what I got but....I went to the Dairy dept to get milk.  Opened the refrigeration area for the milk and it started.  The neuropathy in my hands.  OMG I couldn't use my fingers for anything. How rather embarrassing .  Of course I didn't stop and bought cold items, frozen items but it didn't matter.  The neuropathy kept up the whole time I was in the store.  Even when I went to the clothing dept.  It didn't stop.  Once I got outside where it was warm it started to improve and was ok when I got home.  I've just never been that disabled and it was scary.  Mercifully the girl at the check out realized something was wrong and helped me but goodness what an ordeal.  

I've talked to the nurse at the chemo office about talking to the DR about cutting the meds back that cause that.  They're going to have to because its really effecting my job and if they want to get paid......they need to make sure I can do my job!!

Rosco and I are having Kelbasa tonight.  We're going to watch the Daytona Race and maybe steam clean the carpet.  Did anyone watch the Daytona race last night?   Yeah Little E.   He finally won a race and in the 3 car to beat it all.  I loved it!!

Have a safe holiday everyone!!

 

It is absolutely beautiful here today!! I'm going to get a carpet shampooer and try to get Rosco/Jaspers marks off of my living room carpet...

My very first tomato plant!!!

I'll let you know if it ever grows a tomato!!   I have 3 plants, surely I'll get 1 !!!


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