I'm home. Discharged Friday. I'm not feeling worse but this took a lot out of me. I guess I should know that 9 days in the hospital after surgery will take a big ol' toll out of anyone and..since I'm not 35 any more its a bigger toll. I was in a lot of pain yesterday. I'm sure it was because I had moved around on Friday more than any other day. I'm tired today. Very very tired. but....I did sleep until 10 am. I didn't go to bed until 2 am but I did go to sleep and sleep well. I think I'll probably take a few naps today.
Xzhibit and his friend came by and brought me dinner last night. It was from Carrabas. It may have been a bit too rich for me but I sure loved eating it!!! I probably should have left the Caesar Salad alone. I'm thinking my innards weren't ready for raw veggies.
The surgery....Well it wasn't a laparscopy (sp) . They started out wanting to do it that way BUT...the tumor was bigger than they thought. It had spread into my bladder so they had to cut it out of that area too. They tested 24 lymph nodes and found cancer in1. 1 is better than 2 but not as good as 0. So, I have numerous scars and staples holding me together. Bikini hell..there will never be a 2 pc bathing suit on this old body.!!!
Let me tell you something about drains...You know, those things that hang off your hip filling up and being drained a few times a day. Rather unappealing I'll say and rather a nuisance. Well, when they decided to remove the drain I was thrilled. I had heard that the drain removal was very uncomfortable at best. It wasn't too bad as they were removing it. There was one small glitch that caused me to wince but that was all. Out it came. So here I am thinking how "not too bad" that was when all of a sudden the path of the drain felt like it was on fire. OMG the pain was awful. It lasted nearly 45 minutes. I think if I ever have one removed again, I'll make sure that I've had a good dose of pain medication before they start!!!
I have a follow up appt next week with the surgeon. He'll take out the staples and refer me to an Oncologist. I'm probably going to have to have chemo. How do I feel about that? Terrified. I've heard so many different stories about chemo etc that this not knowing, and having to wait is difficult. Of course it was my decision.. I could have had the referral in the hospital and chose to wait. I just couldn't have dealt with it.
So there I am. Here alone, missing my doggie so much. He's with Zoot. I spoke with her this morning and she says he's doing fine. He has charmed himself into sleeping with Zoot and Mr Z when LilZ isn't there. I have this huge space in my bed that is just screaming "Rosco" all night long. Zoot is bringing him back on Friday or Saturday. I can't wait...
Today is beautiful. I think I'll just lay down, enjoy the weather and watch racing. After all, I have to recover from this procedure so I can get ready for the next.
I am so glad to hear you are home. Ive been worried.
Just let your body heal.
My Mom's chemo is going well. Its tiring but she seems to be managing ok.
Sending you good thoughts and hugs
Posted by: Laura | 04/25/2010 at 10:28 PM
I have been thinking of you, I'm so thankful that your home. Take time to relax and heal your body. Nap all you need!
Posted by: Mary Jo | 04/25/2010 at 07:04 PM
Ah my dear, I am so happy you are getting back to posting. I've been thinking of you so much and wondering how you were doing. It will be good when Roscoe his home and can give you lots of dackel loves!
Posted by: Maribeth | 04/25/2010 at 03:20 PM
I wish you much luck in this journey you're on. The chemo I'm having isn't so bad...no hair loss, more tiredness and some diarrhea, which is easily controlled with Immodium AD.
Posted by: Janet | 04/25/2010 at 02:48 PM
Take it easy and heal! One step at a time. They could get all of it and chemo will make sure it's gone. Thinking of you.
Posted by: Margaret | 04/25/2010 at 12:53 PM